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[Sunday the 29th|01:08 am] |
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| | We Are The Reason - Avalon | ] |
"I finally found the reason for living, it's in giving every part of my heart to Him".
I wanna spend a lot more time in the holidays with God.
I want love to come back from Genting right now now nowww.
I'm excited for Christmas.
I wanna eat Bbq chicken wings, & no not those at hawker centres; those I bbq-ed myself.
I wanna sleep, I can't sleep but I'll sleep after this.
I love exercising like very very much.
I'm gonna own balls next year, watch out.
I need t train till I've no lungs.
I keep forgetting to put on my rubber bands in my mouth.
Idk why some people never understand the present situations,
never understand what I've been saying,
never understand the term 'friends',
& he thinks he understands me very well instead.
Blood boil, head ache & heart boomzzz.
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[Sunday the 15th|12:58 am] |
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| | Miami Beach - The Cool Kids | ] |
   Thank you love, not exactly just for the things you've done; but simply just for you.
I had a wonderful 17th, even though we didn't do anything Boomz b'cus of your Os that only ended on my birthday itself. But it didn't really matter, everyday spent with you; I feel like everyday's my birthday.
When we reached Vivo & I was reminded of Mount Faber, I couldn't care less b'cus I'm looking forward t having more memories with you.
When the sky was drizzling & you held my hand & we walked in the rain, I didn't feel like I needed the shelter b'cus I needed you more.
When you gave me that puzzle piece with your name on it, I was so glad that yes; I've found that missing piece in my life.
& those simple words you wrote for me in the card, it touched the bottom of my heart.
Apart from God, you're the next greatest thing I've found in my life. I did nothing to deserve God's love, & I did nothing to deserve yours too. Thank you for being the one, thank you for being so willing to take up such a huge burden to always be by my side, to help me overcome the past hurts I've received from others. You didn't have to, b'cus I know this isn't something light to carry, but you took both me & my hurts on your bare back & walked this distance. I wanna thank you so much that with you around, I came clear of things & I see how good you are for me amongst all the bad. With you, I threw my hurts off your back, so you could walk an even further distance with me alone.
Thank you for making me believe again, believe that Male isn't a screwed up gender, that there's still a gem in front of me - you sparkled so brightly I couldn't miss it at all. You showed me much more than just what's in a fucked up man.
Thank you so much for making me able to trust again. You made me able to give my whole heart again after all the times that I've decided to throw this heart of mine away; I didn't need any heart beat anymore then. But you lightened up my life once more & showed me that life goes on & it has barely started.
I told you I'm afraid of the future, that if I were to hold onto something so dearly, it would hurt me so much again if I had to let go next time. Come to think of it, I wanna stop that fear. I wanna think like you, I wanna give you all I can too to treasure you.
& after feeling for your past heartache, it pains me so. I don't want you to go through those, I don't want you to feel so helpless and upset about life anymore in future. I don't wanna be like those who returned you shit when you've given them love. I know you deserve much better & I wanna be the one to give you all the things to make you smile & feel like the world's a beautiful place.
I think I've written quite a bit & I could continue on without a stop. As time goes by, you'll see that I love you more & more each day. As time goes by, you'll see that there's nothing more I wanna do than to live life with you.
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[Sunday the 18th|11:51 pm] |
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| | The Potter's Hand | ] |
 Jesus shine your light and
let the whole world see.
We're singing,
for the glory of the risen King.
On Saturday, I learnt and felt things like I never did in an hour or so, just listening. Idk why ever since I stepped outta the room, there's this feeling in me till now. I can't describe it at all, but it's not a bad feeling. It's still grinding in me at every thought of what I've learnt. I thought about it & I want it even more now. It's burning in me, I've never wanted to do something as much as this before, but I'm still not allowed to. How dear, how. I feel so desperate. It's not an urge but I really want to, I'm dying to. I wonder what's causing such strong and intense impact on me. Human inspires, the Holy Spirit convicts- yes. Pray Cheryl, keep praying. I'm left with 20 days dear Lord.
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[Sunday the 11th|01:13 am] |
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| | Content | ] |
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| | Fallin' For You - Colbie Caillat | ] |
 Picture of the day & I so love this sweetsugar hereee.
Love, you told me I don't need to thank you but everyday I've new things I wanna thank you about. So much so that even when I tryna think of them all it feels so overloaded. You make me so happy now, really. After the previous time I didn't wanna get myself cheered up but to compare with anything in the past, it feels like I've never been happy before; I'm really that happy now with you around. Thanks for everything. I'll live & learn to be your Eve from now to the future & Adam you shall be. I thank & pray to God for Him being our guardian angel & I know He will forever. So much to say, so much to do; with you.
I love you.
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| Trust, respect, honor, secrecy & solidarity - θπ. |
[Thursday the 8th|11:27 pm] |
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| |  Energetic | ] |
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| | Lazy Days - Shwayze | ] |
"Your reputation comes from the company you keep. And the company you keep - Bitches".
 Although this is not the best thriller you can find on Earth, but I would say it's pretty good. I like the suspense & gore, even though it is a different kind from Saw but it's just nice to watch. Guys you get to see hot bods & tits if you like that uh huh. Blahhh yeah it just isn't too bad. THETA PI MUST DIE.
GO WATCH IT.
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[Sunday the 4th|10:57 pm] |
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| |  Grateful | ] |
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| | Wo Xu Yao You Ni Zai Wo Sheng Ming Zhong | ] |
Thanks for being in my life God.
You're the greatest gift to me ever,
& I wanna dwell in Your house forever.
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| Insomnia? |
[Sunday the 4th|02:11 am] |
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| | Awake | ] |
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| | Di Yi Ge Qing Chen - Wang LeeHom | ] |
Promos has just started & it's ending but it feels like shit.
I pray for FSMS that he'll be able to fulfill God's will for him over there.
I wanna see Love everyday but that I've to wait till after his exams.
Melon Soda tastes pretty good.
Market failure describes circumstances when distortions prevent the price mechanism from allocationg resources efficiently, resulting in welfare loss.
Genetics of Bacteria is not understandable.
Is there a grammar error in the quote above?
I regret choosing red powerbands, looks like my teeth are bleeding.
I like my habit of drinking tea with my mom every night.
I wanna buy something, is Time on sale?
Love, if you see this I'm sorry I'm not sleeping because I can't but I am going to now; I love you.
Bye.
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[Wednesday the 23rd|10:44 pm] |
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| | Light Up The Sky - Yellowcard | ] |
Nothing ever felt like this before.
This simple, this happy,
this sweet, this good.
I thank God for showing me His promise;
I thank you for you,
I thank you for making me Cheryl once more.
Now I'm back up on my feet,
so let me do it all again for you.
I love you.
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| 李立群老师 ♥ |
[Monday the 21st|04:04 pm] |
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| | Grateful | ] |
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| | Yearning Heart - Boys Over Flower OST (A'ST1) | ] |
 Okay,
I miss this woman so much all of a sudden, I went to talk to her just now. & when I was talking to her, she was still so motherly like always. I felt like I could just fly over to her house right now to give her a hug seriously! I realised I don't have a lot of pictures with her, how sad. & ohmyg, I'm in this super sentimental mood right now; I'm remisniscing about the past. I closed my eyes & right behind my eyelid I see the picture of myself being in her lesson like as if it was just yesterday. I don't miss a lot of teachers, I miss a few but she's the one I miss the most. I can't really remember what the other teachers have taught me but I can still remember vividly the things that she encouraged me, nagged at me, reprimanded me; didn't really care but now I can feel her words touching me. (Damnnn, I feel like crying).
Yeah, I still remember her crying in front of the class & the thought of it still kinda aches my heart. When I didn't wanna study, I was lazy; she told me that I've got the standard & it only depends on myself on what grades I wanna get at the end. When I always didn't bother to complete her homework, she always said "下次我把你们轰出课室!" & I thought she won't but one day she really did. & imagine which teacher would be there to gossip with you & ask you about your boyfriend all that shit; she's so much like a friend to us. Chinese lessons were the only lessons I looked forward to b'cus no matter what I won't fall asleep & it's the only lesson I wished for time to slow down. Somehow I just wish that she could be teaching me forever. Okay & she said "逝去的是不可以再寻回的, 好好地珍惜眼前的人事物吧".
She mentioned that her motto for teaching is "Teach to touch the future". I'm glad that her motto kept her going for the past 15 years & counting. She's someone who has impacted my life & that right here she has touched one heart forever.
李老师, 我知道你要说我肉麻可是刚刚和你的谈话真的唤起了很多很多美好的回忆. 虽然今天不是教师节也不是你的生日, 但是我还是要对你说, 你是我最想念最敬爱的老师. 希望你能一直教书, 因为我相信会被你感动的学生将会多得数不尽. 哈哈, 还有你别担心, 我结婚时的请帖一定会寄到你的门前.
老师我爱你!
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[Thursday the 17th|10:24 pm] |
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| | Lollipop [Feat. Jay-Z, Soopafly, Nate Dogg] - Snoop Dogg | ] |
Happiness, probably.
Moodiness, perhaps.
Thoughtfulness, I guess so.
Somehow it feels like before,
the heart feels heavy.
Didn't think it was bad (neither good),
but days go by
and the weight increases.
Somehow I'm still a little afraid,
but maybe not as much as before
b'cus I know & you know & we know.
What do I do?
Oh wait,
did I just hear my heart beat again?
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[Sunday the 13th|11:22 pm] |
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| |  Peaceful | ] |
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| | 1, 2, 3, 4 - Plain White T's | ] |
 To those you love & appreciate, you can kiss them goodbye & go miles away. But at the same time you carry them in your mind, your heart, your eyes & everywhere, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you.
So I thank God for healing & for the ones who make me happy like how I am now. I wanna treasure the happiness & dump the sadness behind where I won't be able to find it anymore.
P.S. I'm gonna earn my own money in future, backpack around the world, buy my own satisfaction. Come along, join me won't you?
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[Wednesday the 9th|01:06 am] |
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| | Mixtape - Butch Walker | ] |
         Really really really, I didn't say much but I'm really very thankful to you for many many many things today.
x I wanna thank you for going marketing & waking up earlier to prepare the three food (& I like them all loads).
x I wanna thank you for being a gentleman, I shan't elaborate too much b'cus I'll just be boosting your ego!
x I wanna thank you for helping me with the eating of the lollipop b'cus I really can't bite!
x I wanna thank you for lending me your spare shirt in the cinema or I'll freeze to death.
x I wanna thank you for watching the movie with me so I know "copypig" has a copyright (So you should stop!).
x I wanna thank you for Marche.
x I wanna thank you for relaxing the day off with me.
x I wanna thank you for the precious day.
x I wanna thank you for "FANNY"-ing me that time, hahaha.
Actually, I've more to thank than just today. But I'll leave the others for another time ey.
Thanks Clement!
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[Sunday the 23rd|02:11 am] |
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| | Crash And Burn - Savage Garden | ] |
♥ Yesterday night was spent with my dearly beloved Laogong & Joelle, loved it like hell a lot. Like the usual, everything was hilarious & comfortable & warm & nice; we're always still so close no matter what. But one sad thang's that we're only three quarter complete b'cus we're lack of Thang Wen Qi! We ate sumptious dinner till out tummies bloat & we studied bitzzz b'cus one has Promos, one has O's, one has N's. Study hard loveees! Then we took pictures like always, so many so many so many. Then I've dumb curfew so we went home after that. But b'cus we live at places all over, I really really really appreciate all the time we have together, really.
Seeing them just makes me smile & laugh & forget everything terrible. Hior hior, thanks Joelle for watching the ultimate public display of affection movie with me yesterday and highing together & thanks Laogong for giving me the piglet with the rose and sending me all the way home.
You three are the most awesome friends out there, love you ♥♥♥
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